When we're working for a while on something, it's easy to loose track of the motivation.
Are you doing something, because it's good and worthwhile, or are you only too invested?
If you're doing things only because it's just cheaper than stopping it, don't bother. It's not worth it. Stop.
Get out, look around, and find something exciting. Something that will fuel your passion, and bring smile every morning. Something to be happy about.
You won't be good at anything just by attendance, showing up. You need to care, you need to be passionate.